burn out
we work to earn buy the things to suffice our vanity, fulfill our needs and save some for future investment. we strive to survive each day, trying to surpass what we had accomplished yesterday, we never get tired of the cycle that we have to move to earn, we have to walk and find ourself in the middle going no where… career burn out.
if we were not born with silver spoon we have to worry, in a few years or more we are going nowhere. middle aged yuppie in a traffic light of convergence of e-commerce, we are now, looking down to the ground trying to find a penny. financial markets will have its fuse worn out, each that rely on networks will have its own internal chaos, accidentally or intentionally. this could be inevitable, for centuries order and system proved to be fallible. anything calculated by human mind will never be one hundred effecient.
my fear is not going nowhere, my fear is losing all the knowledge i have accumulated just to keep me going,everything that rely on Uncle Sam’s mercy will crumble, the growing economy of Chairman Mao’s people slowly breaks the egg of silence, and with their work culture and merciless saturation of cheap labour and practice of the six sigma they can really make it to the top. and after years of using english as the global corporate language we have to struggle trying to arm ourselves with mandarin tongue.
so all our western knowledge will be obsolete, and things learned in the street chants will be replaced. the environment is slowly losing its luster, slowly industry eats up the atmosphere, bodies of water and soil plus the apathy of common human, we are really near in our end, everything has its tolerance limit. we had been talking and debating much on morality but to extent of reality there is no such thing as morality, we act by the way we were brought up, we live not to be righteous nor to be morally right, we just live because our culture dictates our being. the emergence of popular culture is a virus that crawled over our system and it teaches us the very first premise of this entry. the fads, fashion, the needs. gone are the days when people looked at the ground and loved it, gone are the days where you respect your boss, gone are the days where you have faith with the network systems, everything is going nowhere. charitable institutions were born not to help the needy, its reality is to save the companies from big chunks of tax payments, any money or asset diversified to as charity is non taxable. Non government organization work not really to fulfill their duty to asnwer the human need, or because of emphaty, they work because they are funded by the same GLOBAL institutions who kill the economy of the developing countries. NGO give much incentives on these people who work real hard, but to some extent i just cant help but question the sustainability of development. and if aid is really given whole heartedly then why such things like documentations are not presented truthfully? i should know, i have been in that line of work, and if you are planning to work on that field here are some advise. It is true that you earn much on this institutions, but save your money, you will be needing the money after the program ended, or maybe you will not be able to reach the end you might quit. second never tell your boss that you have the skill to do special stuffs, it will never be compensated. and when your boss insists on a wild idea on a limited budget just raise your hand and say "it can not be done". always avoid complications, program managers especially the not so young ones tends to be grumpy…always mind the generation gap. and if all things don’t come your way, stand up and go. there is big world for people like you.
and lastly when you are out of that network you will miss the part of having sleepless nights. and you will always have to work again to match the first sentece. and again career burn out. never ending turning, just to find yourself somewhere in the middle going nowhere.
-darkmau-
MALAYA!
