Giving up
A friend once told me that i have a problem in holding on. Obviously the comment was made to whatever purpose it would serve. Well that friend told me that i am a Rockeeter, and i asked her what does a rockeeter means, well she simply meant that i am always aware of what is coming ahead, and i will never be caught off guard. And I told her that i am not that kind of guy. And she just smiled.
After that talk we never had the chance to be together, i left for abroad and she went somewhere in Luzon. and she found out i was in London she e-mailed me and said.
"You almost had everything way back here, why gamble much and give up almost every single luxury you have? You never fail to amaze me, mau you have the world at your finger tips yet you strive for something more ahead. May God bless a rockeeter soul. In every way mau you are always darkness, difficult to contain, just when i thought i captured your existence the more i was led astray. till here."
and i smiled when i read that e-mail, she was right, what the hell was i thinking going in a foreign place when i had so much to lose. i could turn myself in hell at an instant. yet i had to do it, i have a problem holding on to the present, i wander far beyond just to keep up with my existence. in this world where everything moves swiftly and each day doesnt last, one must give up in order to survive. but only a few people know, that when i hold on to something, i don’t let go. i only stand on a ground worth believing.
mau
MALAYA!
