man in the fridge

she stared at him

he looked at her

complete silence

she smiled at him,

he smiled back.

he took the first step towards her

and she stood firmly in her place.

like a romantic movie

everything seemed slow.

she was still smiling

he was almost in tears.

yet in fact they dont know each other.

but fate as they call it,

for them it was attraction

a sweet attraction.

as he was getting near

her heartbeat started to pound like hammer

he knew he’d have her…

she knew she’ll have him..

until finally they met face to face

closely standing together…

he held her hand…

and she looked at him

and she looked down on the ground.

another minute passed she spoke,

"Are you insured?, Im actually selling deals for life insurance."

silence for him… as he began to laugh.

darkmau

MALAYA!

and you touched me like no one did.

took me somewhere

and left me nowhere,

on blissful tragedy.

i watched the moon

and all i could see

is someone like you

dancing high.

as the light escaped my eye

from the melancholic call

another call for me to fall

so is this the way to die?

but today,

if our eyes will meet

dont look away

and i promise you id smile.

yet if you choose

to stay away…

i wont force you to stay.

cause someone like you might never be mine.

and if all might fail

id still be here

dreaming..

of someone like you.

-darkmau

MALAYA!

-poetry for shem-

malipayong adlaw nga akong gidamgo

sa usa kagabii nga akong giampuan.

human natulog ko sa katre sa kangitngit

aron makamata sa kahayag.

apan wala nako naapas ang mga aninipot.

nabilin ko sa usa ka dapit nga hilak lang akong nahibal-an.

unta wala na lang ko nag uban sa imong paglaag.

SANA

isang magandang araw aking napanigipan,

sa isang gabi na aking dinasalan.

at natulog ako sa kama ng kadiliman,

upang magising sa liwanag.

ngunit di ko naabutan ang mga alitaptap,

naiwan ako sa isang sulok na pag iyak lamang ang aking  nalalaman.

sana di na lang ako sumama sa iyong pamamasyal.

-darkmau

MALAYA!

they were lost in place somewhere in time. he was struggling to beat time and she who was confident and smart, looking forward to meet time. they were different and yet similar in some ways, he who is always afraid, and she who is so brave. he knew what he wanted, but he never really knew how would he get it.she knew it was time for her to move, but she is just haunted by her ghosts.but things fell in places, they met in an unchartered course of time. both knew it was an attraction, but to an extent it was confusion.

divine providence or plain coincidence that they held hands together while dancing with the rains of sorrow and pain. both held tight on the course of bumpy air packets, but he who knew less clinged to something he kept on real, it was an anchor of faith with her. but due to some unforseen events he gave in to the world, for his world was shattering like meteors and in a galactic scope. while she let him go. it was not a question of promises but a sudden twist of fate. he knew it was time to go but he held up to the last bit he could struggle. she became his light in the darkness of his existence. she was a beacon for him, trusted every bit of her existence, he may have said less but she feels the darkness in him.

but in the end, they departed, both knew it was bound to happen, and she was just waiting for him to let go of that beacon. she became silent and thank God for all the freedom and truth, but he who is on the curse tragedy silently prayed for wisdom.

maybe it was a sad story to begin a tale of hope. or maybe it was just plain corruption of mind, the bliss in the start was just a wind coming just for him to beat time, and for her to meet time. the question is, who won?-maybe time itself did make its point. a twist of deep-shallow reality. a pseudo romantic comedy…and its raining again.

-darkmau-

MALAYA!

-!Then finally, the essence of time and the power of your heart crossing paths, and the only knowledge you’re left with is the realization that time is the one thing that keeps you from letting go. No, it’s never the embracing, or the kisses. Not the laughter or the tears, only time."-

-glf-

i have been out for quite sometime doing some shits to keep me going, cause life aint easy and everything seems so absurd. but nonetheless life is worth living. oh by the way, i have been to  a small shop somewhere in davao, and i saw this stall that sells havianas slippers, and i saw the price tags, and i said what the fuck, a rubber slippers that looks like spartan costs 900 to 2000 plus. and so i asked the sales girl of their yield of sales per month, and she answered "roughly 200 pairs a month sir" and i was kinda shocked cause i never realized davaoenos have that capacity to purchase such luxury for a pair of slippers… but im not undermining the fact that there are some who could really afford such things.

anyway i was in a coffeshop one time waiting for time to pass me by, and i saw a bunch of yuppies coming my way, and i have noticed one thing in common with them, their mobile phones are all 3G enabled. so in short they could make video call and other fantastic tricks with their mobile phones. oh geez life is a wonder,and it is completely changing. but on my way home, on the jeepney, a college girl barely in her twenties was holding the same 3g mobile phone i saw and wears a havianas slipper. and i was kinda shocked, and so people say that life is hard yet they could still afford to have to have those gadgets and perks. im kinda bitter cause i cant afford one.(mga donors nagpaparinig ako)hahaha

now the next day, i was with miel and we were in a pharmacy, and i saw different kinds of condoms displayed near the counters/till,and i was really trying to to read the difference between each condoms. and i was kinda on my laugh trip mode cause there are so many kinds of condoms that i never knew existed. but i was shocked when a lanky boy came and cut on my que and suddenly asked for the ribbed one"extra sensation" hmmm made me say to myself, is he going to get laid? hahaha, i dont care if he does, i mean its his sex life not mine…evil mode again after that.

on our way out, rock band alternatives playing again on radio emerging after moments of silence during the late nineties, hmm which makes me think of the good ole grunge era when lord kurt was still alive and slamming on his fucking guitar… where have all the legends gone? pop culture  nga naman ng pinoy, emerging, tapos flatline, prang negosyo, kung walang innovations biglang mawawala ang lifecycle. konting oras lang ako nkalabas ng maayos but i saw some major changes, pati friends ko nagbago na rin ang itsura, hay halos lahat formal na, may stable job at may sariling buhay na.as for me im still left weaving dreams im almost 7 years close before i hit the maximum limit for attaining what i need to attain… but still im fucked up… fucked up dito fucked up doon…

krrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng!

hello…

papa: oi bumangon ka na dyan at marami ka pang pupuntahan!

ako: ay sorry nakatulog ako…

and so i wrote this blog from my dream, while i was trying to fix a case analysis na ang hirap hirap tapusin kasi ang daming numbers involved…hay so much for sleeping… sabi pa ni carle minsan sa akin.."puede ka namang matulog pag patay ka na ah" oo nga naman may point siya don.

ps: i was reading a profile from one of my friends’ list, and if you still read my blogs, i have a message for you…thank you for teaching me one of life’s great lesson for everything you have done when i was in with you in london, sorry din sa lahat ng mali… i remembered  a line i wrote from one of the play i wrote way way back, "madaling mabuhay, mahirap maghanap ng buhay". and now i know its really true.

darkmau-is back

MALAYA!

So if poetry can say all that I have.

So if all these things would be enough,

To compensate all that is inside.

So to speak mumbles to none.

If all things would fall

Then I should take the call

Go to the point

And never let time to stall.

If I can keep the flames burning,

While others are losing theirs

While I can see light

And they are in the dark.

Just if I could even for a day,

If I only could

Then I really would

But time grabbed me to hold.

darkmau

MALAYA!

mas maingay daw ang lata

mas walang laman

parang isang bunganga na puro salita

at kung anu-ano nakikita.

babala: huwag maging maingay na lata…

darkmau

MALAYA!

dito sa malaya kong mundo

nakakubli ang isang libong demonyo

dito sa tahimik kong paraiso

nagiinuman ang mga multo at anino.

sa isang lugar ng kawalan

sa panahong walang katapusan

digmaan na walang hanggan

buhay na di tiyak ang paroroonan.

pero dito sa tahimik kong mundo

dito kita itatago,

ilalayo…

sa minyon at dilubyo.

dito sa aking mundo,

isasama kita, sa tahimik na paraiso.

at dito mo makikita,

ang buo kong pagkatao… hindi perpekto.

darkmau

MALAYA!

-huwag niyo akong tignan na para bang kilala niyo ang buo kong pagkatao, dahil sa likod ng aking karimlan naroon ang aking tunay na katauhan

she stared at him most of the time

and when he looked at her

she just gave a sweet smile

all of those exchanging glances

filled the moment of longing.

they knew they were just borrowing time

she talked less

he wanted to speak more

but none gave a word.

she loved him in silence

despite every single thing around him.

he loved her more than she could ever imagine

and she was the only one who owns his mind and heart

even in time of chaotic reality..

both of them though knew

they fit in perfect harmony…

even in silent stares.

they need not words to express

or kiss or hugs to filll the space.

both knew they were in the right space and at the right time…

that is conquered by silence.

darkmau

MALAYA!

-an eden trip to silence thanks-

Cool Water: Capture

If I could keep that air for a longer time

I will save all memories in capsule

Not letting go of each word

I heard while your lips were moving.

If I could just freeze that moment

And barricade the spot

Where you once stood

And all the stars were completely hiding.

If I could just make a miracle

And make all the planets collide

To create a unified universe

Where you will not be there and I won’t be here.

But I just can’t let go of this drastic reality

And I am caught up in this madness

While I try to sniff the last scent

From an almost empty bottle,

All sorrows and sadness remain

While I spread all over

The hanging feeling

Of being here and you left somewhere.

Mau

MALAYA

!