man in the fridge

since the start of industrial revolution the  problem of quality emerged. although it can be debated that in the modern time, quality of products and services served by a modern technology is rather less flawless. but come to think of this, are we talking more of quality or quantity? can it be true that quality and quantity can both be served at the same time? and if it is possible, then how should we do it?

we always say that life is too short and we should enjoy every minute of it. but are we really enjoying the sad fact that we are just a moving marionette that is being controlled by the corporate junkies. and if you don’t know who they are then please take a good look at your bags, your room, your phones and even your streets. brand names, trademarks these are part of the corporate junkies.

gone are the days where you work a little and you enjoy more. well, basically you can still do that but you will jeopardize the future, since nothing comes free, and if you squander your resources now you are left with nothing. even these so called banks would lead you to your doom.

so basically what is my point? simple. it is the haste of the modern living that brings us to the drainage. the moment that we let all these so called fast food chains, and modern communications and all mass produced items we are slowly drowning. we are drowning because we are caught in the waves of swift motion.

the faster we move, the faster we exhaust our resources, and nobody can move from the inevitable. because there is the problem of uncertainty, we could not out run or undo the chaos of haste.

24 hours is a short time… how much time did we invest for self  growth and for human compassion without thinking of the medium of exchange. how many markets and industry drowned in bankruptcy and debts just because of haste. in physics there is that law of gravity… that whatever comes up must come down.

we all have to reach our saturation limit. and these fat cats who are so called TYCOONS would bring us to that. one way or the other. and i refuse to go with the flow…but i am left with no choice. a culture of one is a culture of none.

darkmau

MALAYA!

ipikit ang mata

at maghintay

sa hudyat ng kaba

natatakot sa ayaw makita.

pipigilin ang oras

sa pagpigil ng hinga

at di magtatagal

hihingalin ka bigla.

pipiliting makatulog

upang managinip

sa musika ng gabi

agad kang gigisingin.

magdadasal ka

sa Diyos mong kilala

mananalangin ng taimtim

na huwag na sanang dumilim.

naghihintay habang nakatanga

gunita mo lamang

laging naalala

nanabik sa pagkatulala.

di ko na kayang matapos

ang aking tula

sa dahilang nasira ang pagkakataon

dumating si ERMS at akoy nautusan.

darkmau

MALAYA!

i wish i could wake up at  12

leave the house by three

go to the mall

and watch a movie.

head for the shop

and have a coffee

wait for my date

and have dinner and tea.

if i could have that time

and make every single second mine

live a lot longer

and i could die.

if i could find my space

write all my thoughts

and worry nothing

leave everything as if it doesn’t matter.

forget the bills to pay

deadlines to sway

oh if it only works that way

life will be gay.

if there is no today

and tomorrow ain’t coming my way

and everything is still

ahhh the bliss is my only will.

but its now half past four in the morning

and my eyes are slowly opening…

shit… have to sort everything

welcome to the world of bullshitting.

darkmau

MALAYA!

you came in late while the church door was closing

you came late while she was waiting

you came late while she was in vain

you came late while she was leaving.

and you never learned that sense of timing

and you never knew why she was always leaving

and you don’t why she can never be yours

while in fact your doing everything you could.

everything seemed so right

but everything is so wrong

everything was hanging by a moment you are trying

while each day you are being grabbed to stay.

and in the end you realized things are not meant to be

and some things are mere fallacy.

you are trying and you keep on pushing

when the reality is not meant for you….really?

darkmau

MALAYA!

kung ayaw mo na gawin

huwag mo na pilitin

parepareho tayong masasaktan

nakakapagod magtaguan.

kung ano ang dapat mong sabihin

huwag na mag alinlangan

parepareho tayong nabibitin

kaya tama na, huwag ng pilitin.

di naman ako masasaktan

ayaw ko lang na makita kang nahihirapan

habang pinagmamasdan kang luhaan

sumasabog ang aking katinuan sa kalawakan.

sa haba ng panahong inantay

panahon na para ihimlay

ibaon sa limot ang nakaraan

may ngiting nag aantay sa iyo kinabukasan.

di na bago sa akin ito…

di lang naman tayo ang dumaan sa ganito

masasanay din ako, mabubuhay pa rin ako.

kahit kaniya kaniya na tayo…

darkmau

MALAYA!

sa munti nyang kamay ko naunawaan

ang kahulagan ng kalayaan

sa mga mata niyang lumiligid

at walang takot na may makita.

bibig na kapos sa salita

ngunit nakakapagsabi ng katotohan

mga binting kulang sa balanse

pero may malayang paa.

minsan sa pagkakataon na ito

nakita ko maganda pala ang mundo

habang nakikita ko siyang tumatawa

at sinasamsam ang bawat makita.

sumisiple ang mundo habang siya ang pinagmasdan

hindi man tiyak ang kaniyang bukas

ang alam niya lamang ang kanyang ngayon

at ang musmos niyang kalayaan.

nakaligtaan ko na ang mga panahon

na minsan din akong naging tulad niya

mangmang ngunit hindi alila

inosente ngunit hindi tanga.

o kay sarap maging tulad niya

manatiling bata at hndi na muling tatanda

o kay sarap maging tulad niya,

musmos at malaya.

darkmau

MALAYA!

i should not be writing this but i must. i am not a mobile person, and I keep on forgetting my mobile phone, and when I got home I saw a message asking this question. HOW TO GET RID OF AN EX?

Well first and first foremost, let us go back to the basics. Let us draw the principles of an EX(may it be lover or something else). The basic definition of an ex is:

The prefix ex- first appeared in English words in the Middle English in words borrowed from French. It comes from the Latin where it was both a prefix and a preposition. Later in the Middle English period it became a productive prefix. It is akin to Ancient Greek (εκ-, εχ-, εχω-). Its meaning ranges from

• 1. "out, away" (example (exit)
• 2. "up" (abstract meaning indicating increase or strengthening of a particular quality, often negative - sometimes called intensive) (example (exaggeration, exacerbate)
• 3. "former, prior" (examples (ex-boyfriend, ex-president) This is a much later development and did not exist in Latin.

-wikipedia.org-

So for the basic sense of the word it is a former. So how would you get rid of the former MAU? Hmmm, hold your horses guys and gals… hooo. The simple answer is WE CAN NOT! And please dont laugh… tell me how can you get rid of something you can not see? But please be reminded that this is only applicable to those normal cases… it is a case to case basis. and if you have a different scenario, please contact Joe D’ Mango or Dr. Love, I could not help you. Or maybe I could but it might take ages before I could brew a perfect formula.

But if you’re  question is how to forget an ex, or maybe how to eradicate her/him out of your routinary semi Pentium 1 system. Here are some things you could do.

keep your thoughts sane, rearrange your room(if you have one), by doing this you could see a different point of view. Its like reformatting your Operating System in your brain, by rearranging your room please dont forget to take things that would remind you of your ex. Please be reminded you are taking things that reminds you of your ex not because you antagonizing or your angry. ANGER is the last thing you want to feel while your doing this.

If you dont want to that, here’s another tip, pick up a new hobby, change your lifestyle , do something that you have never done before. Collecting Garbage and recycling is a healthy habit, its something I am certain we dont normally do, by doing this we change not only our life but the mother earth’s life span. Okay, if your thinking I am being silly then take something that you have never done before. BUT REMEMBER DO SOMETHING FOR THE BETTER. IF it will end you up in a MENTAL ASYLUM or JAIL  then please don’t do it.  A diversion of attention can make a great difference

Fine you still feel lonely and helpless, then here’s another option. Go make friends, or get reunited with past friendships, or relive your Former childhood "BARKADA" bonding moments. Just be certain of something, that your not placing your ex as an excuse to use the time of these people. Because if you do your only placing yourself in a circumstance where you are living life for a shadow of a non existent FORMER. and if you are on your low moments you are vulnerable to unnecessary temptations. AND I KNOW YOU DINT WANT TO DO THAT. Well if you want… then ITS UP TO YOU… JUST DONT COME BACK TO ME OR TO YOUR FRIENDS IF YOUR IN ANOTHER SH*T. Remember your ex is not your oxygen, you can live without him/her by your side. Its a habit of seeing or being with her/him, and all habits can be break. Hard…but it is possible.

And if everything doesn’t seem to work, and you still feel that you love/ need that person. Then Gamble a little more. Push Your limits until you could give no more. Its like a diarrhea, when you dont have anything more to give then that’s it.. no matter how you try, thats it. No more. Its like trying hard to puff a smoke from a cigarette left only with its filter, and that’s it. But there is no harm in trying though. But dont push hard when it says pull. Learn to stop when you see RED. it means your bleeding .

okay, I will not include the thing about looking for a new relationship. change is a constant thing. Its part of the cycle. it could and might happen. one way or the other. DONT FORCE TO UPLOAD A NEW PROGRAM TO A system that is incompatible. it will never run..

the bottom line is this… no matter what we do the only time can tell. we can never forget someone who was part of our life, no matter what, they exist in the past. no matter how good or bad the relationship is, you would remember them one way or the other.

lesson number one, we can not get rid of an ex… they are already gone. lesson number two, to move on out of a relationship is create change. lesson number three, do some diversion. lesson number four reunite within people. lesson number five dont push when it says pull.

and for the major rules…the only way to move on is watch the clock/calendar… only time heals all kinds of wound. there is no best remedy for longing but wanting… but wanting is superficial feeling. we just created this force because we got used to this feeling that we are being needed.. and we needed that other person. but after the break up its all wanting…

not love itself but the habit of being there.

oh well i guess i made a lot of circles, and i made my point clear. just imagine… if i replied  through text message it might have cost me so much.

loving and losing is part of the deal.. nobody said its easy.

darkmau

MALAYA!

my love,

i know things went well with you and him. and i am happy that you truly found a happiness you were longing. it is so hard for me to wish you well with him, cause i would and will always wish that i was the man next to you and not him.  but still i wish you all the best… needless to say…i love you.

franc

two years later…

my love,

im sorry but i cant get the word out of mind, you are still the love of my life. i heard that you and him bought that house we were planning to buy. congratulations for that. i pray that everything would be well for you. i could no longer stay in this city, everywhere i go still reminds me of you. as i move along to every corner, it seems your shadows own  the whole city.all the best in life, still i love you.

franc

Franc,

i know everything is quite hard for you, but i admire your courage and faith to hold on to that love. i could not say anything, i could not wish you well either, i know i am the cause of all your agony. we were bestfriends for a long time, but sad to say i had to fall for your girlfriend. i must admit franc we both have the same taste. i am hoping in the near future we could patch things and mend our friendship. with all humility. i am still here franc.

lloyd

franc in his new place, replied to lloyd.after one year

lloyd,

i have bitter feelings over what you have done but, i could not change the things that happened. maybe it happened because it had to change my life. each day was agonizing. and still is. but i am less bitter now, i found Christ in me. I learned the spirit of forgiveness. lloyd we may not be able to mend our friendship as it was before but we could still create a new one. we could always be born again in Christ. i still love her, but she loves you , and now I finally set her free. and please take care of her.

franc

my dearest  franc,

i should have never left you, it was so stupid of me to believe in lies of lloyd. he told me that you were gay, you were just using me to pose a macho image. he tricked me, he told me that you would never marry me because you dont want a woman. for five years, lloyd kept all your letters for me, and i wasnt able to read one of them. lloyd was the biggest lier i ever met. for all these years franc, he kept his secret, he is a bi-sexual. and now, he got me infected with some kind of sexual disease. he was so ashamed of himself when he read your last letter. he admitted everything to me.. and he left…franc i am so alone can you help me?please..

lanie

lanie,

this is franc’s mother, i am so sorry to what have happened with you and lloyd and to your situation. but i am afraid there is nothing that franc could do. he died last week, he was suffering from cancer of the brain. the time when you left him was the time he discovered he was sick. you see lanie, the world was over for franc when he discovered that. and all he wanted was you, but you werent there. i am praying that you would survive this turmoil…

ANNIE

darkmau

MALAYA!

you came along

in a time

i have never known

on a place

i rarely go.

while our eyes

met

i gave you a smile

short one

but enough

to last a lifetime.

one last call

for the rains

as i thread

the shadows back.

but when i wake up

you are nowhere near.

all i had was silver

while i was dreaming

of golden rains

under the grayish skies.

darkmau

MALAYA!