man in the fridge

my sore throat is killing me. i have enough worries to sink TITANIC, and i almost forgot that Christmas is here. This is my second Christmas, and i don’t feel any yuletide celebration running in my vein. i dont want to start with pessimistic mood and talk about the needy or those who are suffering from wars of cultures and aggression.

last December i kicked the butt of the commercial jolly old hippie in a red suit a.k.a Santa Claus.  but this year i don’t feel like celebrating. and i don’t feel like something good should be celebrated. but before you blow your horns and start with things like life is beautiful and stuffs about divinity… just hold your thoughts.

if we would change places, and just for once have that emphatic sense of being… try to picture out what Christmas is for? and i wont tell you a thing about Christmas or stuffs about this traditional celebration, which is being commemorated across the globe even by those people who don’t believe in JESUS CHRIST. and tell me how funny is that.

for over the past 10 years I’ve been hearing people saying that Christmas should not be commercialized and it should be for children and a celebration for the birth of our Messiah. but did anything materialize? We have been trying to strengthen humanity, compassion and dignity to a level of true spirit of Christmas. but we always fall short after the 25th.

i have been disappointed many times, and i am bruised by hoping. i lost because  believed but in a world of uncertainty the only feeling that is left is hope, faith and love, having these three we achieve peace, light and justice. its like a jargon for software upgrades for it to become compatible with the latest hardwares.  and it doesn’t stop there. why cant Christmas go on forever and not just stop on Christmas dinner, new year and three kings. and for once why cant we just fulfill our promises and never let people hanging on by a thread of false hope.

its so hard to be disappointed. i should know… and you know. this Christmas, id be alone, sitting in front of my laptop, thinking, wandering. maybe its time for big changes. time waits for no one, can you just save me for now?

darkmau

MALAYA!

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