man in the fridge

and he said.. id never fall for someone taken, married or in a complicated situation. NEVER. he lived thru that words. but when he was not looking someone came, he did not ask for it…. IT CAME!

she was literally single… but to some extent she was still tied to some entity called LEGALITY. but things went on fluid motion that they became too much meant for each other. they have the same passion about living, driven in long time commitment for a prosperous future. they both had the same sense of humor, the same love of food and a clear view of where they want to be.

on the sad side he failed to prepare for the inevitable. he did not see where issues coming. people always say that when you are hooked with someone previously taken, there are impediments on the course of the future. its a cycle of things. just like the cycle of osmosis and condensation. but he cared less, he fought a good cause for fighting. so where is the issue going wrong?

the answer is nothing. but what the hell is wrong with the picture. and here is the quick analysis of the situation. because there are outside factors affecting their relationship, there is a pressure going on. the circle of friends of the woman were so used to see that she was with her ex. and there is that pressure of accepting facts and dealing with facts. no amount of truth could be held to keep things together. they cant see the fact that she has moved on and making a clear perception of where she wants to be or whom she wants to be with.

he was caught up in the situation where he did not want to be in. but unfortunately he was there on that place and on that time. he is caught in the apathy of judgmental thoughts. the chaotic malicious minds that were always circling on people’s mind were too much to bear. but it is the price he was going to pay just to reach a goal inside his very soul. if it was not love…then maybe it could be fate.

darkmau

malaya!

p.s : i am contemplating to collate all thoughts, doodles and scribbles from the past to make a book of mixed thoughts… do you think anyone is interested to buy one? do i have a market for that? i would like to hear from you.

thanks.

i know the cycle of pain you feel

living with someone insensitive

i feel the doubts and anxieties you have

while you talk about the future.

for all the time that passed

that you were with him

was a sentence of unknown crime

without trial pronounced as guilty.

for the sake of the children

and some blunders to keep

the things together and prove to them

you are a wife and a mother.

with each passing moment

of agony and disguised happiness

and goodbye was not an option

cause it was with him or nothing.

the rainy days and the dry sun

the cold winter and the lonely fall,

how long can you take

before you say i need a break.

but finally when all juices squeezed

all the i love yous and fake kisses

withered in turn of January

your only wish was to be happy.

and now you found something

when you were not looking

and as you accept fate

here he comes again…the biggest villain.

darkmau

malaya!

i could not find the words

to describe how i truly feel

while i hear you talking

i really don’t feel like listening.

as i try to keep things still

everything keeps on changing

time is moving

and I’m continuously left behind.

there is only one direction

and i don’t have the option

to pause or rewind the settings

forward is the only way.

i can never capture the moment

but i can seize the day

yet while i am doing it

i lose another opportunity.

it only shows

that i cant have everything

but there is no harm in trying

i only gain by risking.

too much of anything is bad

too little is bad

but when is enough,

just enough?

while i am trying to prove my point

somewhere someone is contradicting

just like me

someone is disappointed in you.

time is gold

patience is virtue

love does not seek

and it does not fear.

the truth has its own lies

and lies sometimes tell the truth

just like a broken clock

that becomes right twice a day.

i am no saint

in front of a naked woman

but i will never touch someone

who is never mine.

while  i am losing grip

someone is taking advantage

while i envy you

someone is jealous of me too.

some passing thoughts

while I’m not myself.

the romance of anti romancing.

for the love of loving.

darkmau

MALAYA!

to deal with my time

is to deal with YOUR time.

to have my season

is according to YOUR reason.

my will against YOUR will.

my freedom and my joy

and all emotions in between

is according to YOUR HOLY Reason.

my passing time

YOUR loving season.

while i look forward

YOU look still.

on my passing days…

i sometimes forget, its not just my day

its YOUR day.

make it YOUR way.

My Lord.

My God.

as they say…everything has its price.

i say everything has its TIME.

darkmau

Malaya!