man in the fridge

2006 14 February

Carla,

Remember the time  when i told you that i never knew your  friend Marge?When we met the first time? I was lying. It was meant to be a joke at first but things happened so fast. But she is out of the issue now. Before i left for US you told me that you wanted to see me, but i never had the chance to do so. I guess it was the best thing to do.

I have sent you letters when I was in the US, but all letters came back, informing me that you have moved out of your place. And all i can i ask of myself is WHY? Why did you move without informing me, you could have at least sent me a mail of something that you had to move. Yet I know, I don’t have much right or importance to know. Why would anyone care if I would know or not?

I met Greg finally after years of evading his presence for twenty years. And you were right, he is a good looking guy,  and he had this superior charms. No wonder you fell for him. He almost had everything, wits, charms, wealth and the woman of my dreams-you.

It is a sad thing that I only saw you once and that was it. But not a day passed that I ever forget you. It is a lonely feeling, a shattering emotion that I could not be the half the man as Greg was to you. I liked you in silence…. in fact I have loved you in silence. Remember the time that you needed a blood transfusion when you had this rare fever, and you had a Type AB but nobody around your friends have that, not even Greg, and an anonymous person donated you the blood you needed.  It was me. I begged Marge to let me have the chance to let you live. Just  with my blood that I could be inside your system. And that made me happy.

When your family business went down due to debts, remember that a Japanese guy saved your business from bankruptcy ? It was me who made a deal with Mr. Katsume, instead of funding my own business, I told him about your dad’s venture, I secretly compiled marketing plans to your business and made all the viable ways to make the things work. I let go of my dreams to make your family business going.

From that moment on, I was just a shadow. I wanted to get near you, and be with you. See you up close with that sweet smile pasted upon your face. But i cant. I can’t because Greg was there, he was all that you wanted. And i could not see you hurt.

For ten years…. ten years that i have waited for my chance. but it did not come. You married Greg. and had a son, i took it all. but i still prayed for you. You were all that i ever wanted. After all the years that i have seen you happy I decided to move on.

It was over.

I have learned that Greg was having an affair with another woman… and that you had filed for an annulment. I am now in my forties, and you still remained beautiful. I kept my single status and not even laid an eye to any woman. maybe this time i would have my chance. You will still be my only love. I pray that you will give me the chance.

I love you from the fears of my heart. The undying feeling of greater passion that will keep on burning until I give up my last breath.

Juan

-the letter arrived to Carla, but it was too late.. Carla had an attack of depression and committed suicide.Juan’s great love came too late because he waited much. once you found that love, go get it. IF YOUR DESIRE IS GREATER THAN OTHERS NO ONE CAN AND WILL BE ABLE TO STOP YOU.-

darkmau

MALAYA!

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