man in the fridge

i woke up at 8:30 in the morning. and my class starts at 9, and yes you dont have to say it.. I AM BLOODY LATE! and yeah i did not take a shower(nobody will smell me…evil laugh) so I just ate something and left the house.

on my way to the bus stop, a lady with blue eyes(hohoho) smiled directly to me. I looked back to make sure she was smiling at me, and yes, it was confirmed so i smiled back(its called courtesy not flirting). and so i went on to the bus stop and took the bus (number 316 going to north kensington, but id just move off to kilburn station). so while i was crossing the street to get inside the tube station, a chinese(im not sure if she is a chinese or malaysian) again greeted me with a sweet smile. oh so i looked back, and i again smiled back(i am sure it was me, no one was behind me).

and while on the tube, i was just listening to my mp3, and thinking that my prof would take the piss of me again and all for being late. so i just kept quite. while i looked ahead a lady was staring at me. and i could not be mistaken that it was me because she pointed to the direction of my shoes( the lace got untied), so i smiled and fixed the lace. but when i looked back she was still looking at me.

i do not enjoy the smiles and the stares that i got on my to the school. so when i arrived the bulding of the school i went to the toilet to check if there is something wrong with my face or anything. and i could not find any. so i told my self, something is not going right.

and yes i was right all along. there is something not right. I got the feedbacks from my prof about my two papers, and you dont want to know how worst the comments are. haha. and the worst news is tomorrow is the last day. and i dont know how i could finish everything with less that 12 hours on the line. and still i have so many things to do. my head is still spinning and im worried about things. things should be easy but its not.

but i am positive i can sort something out… i should. or else i will be in great great amount of trouble.

and so on my way home….yes they are still smiling at me. blue eyes, green eyes, gray eyes, and brown eyes. i do not if they are mocking me or just simply reminding me that there is always a good reason to smile. no matter how hell things are. and yes they are right, imagine SATAN in helll burning… but still managing to laugh. isn’t it weird?

today is an unusual day…but let me check… what is the usal day?

darkmau

MALAYA!

huwag kang titingin sa akin,

di ko na alam kung ano ang susunod kong sasabihin.

huwag mong hayaan na akoy maging bato,

tumigil, kasama ng aking mundo.

huwag kang magsasalita,

ayaw kong mapahiya.

huwag mo akong hawakan,

dahil tiyak ang aking kamatayan.

huwag kang magtatanong…

wala akong kasagutan,

hindi madali ang maging isang kasalanan.

huwag kang tumuloy, di kita kayang alagaan.

oo, tama ka… dapat kang lumayo.

pumunta sa ibang ibayo.

di kita hahanapin…

di kita aasamin.

sa bawat araw na lumipas,

sa bawat panahong lumagpas,

di ako mag iisip,

at sa larawan mo ay hindi sisilip.

ikaw ang isang pag ibig sa puso ko,

na pilit na ilalayo,

sa bawat araw, sa bawat gabi…

luluha na lamang sa isang pagkakamali.

ikaw… ang nagiisang may ari sa puso kong bilog

napuno na na lumot at agiw

mula sa alaala mong di na nakakaaliw.

ikaw ang pag ibig sa aking pagkataong di magmamaliw.

sa huling hininga ng aking kamalayan

muli kitang babalikan,

isang multo ng aking nakaraan…

ang pag ibig na alay ko sana ay walang hangganan.

darkmau

MALAYA!

linggo ng wika na ba?

hello! hello!

i love you at hello..

hugs dito at hugs doon.

kisses at blushing..

kwentuhan na walang katapusan,

tampuhang walang katuturan,

patawa, patawa, magdadrama…

offline…

nadc nawalan ng credits

ayaw ko..

gusto mo?

o sya sige ulitin natin…

SOP…

imahinasyon..

sangkatutak na temptasyon!

sa paglabas ng pintuan.

biglang malilimutan,

ang buhay sa loob ng internet..

lahat tayo multo..

ako si casper..

sino ka?

asl pls?

darkmau

MALAYA!