i cant figure
why do things get out of hand when you least expeact it to be. is there such a thing called jinx? does it happen with a pattern. i have been raised to eliminate the idea of being fatalistic, yet i can’t help it. not that i wait down here waiting for the fruit to fall. but since i am limited to things, i tend to wish. and thus, i can’t seem to figure where all these things may lead to.
i used to tell every person, that love aint enough, and maybe i am right. but then again, if nothing comes to nothing then the only thing that might matter is love itself. its like a big maze of deception, where one is lost for the purpose of finding.
my vision to find the things that would make a difference is always clouded by doubts and self interest. if you start to become alrtuistic, you tend to forget life itself. and why is that? simply because the cause of your life matters only if you serve a certain goal.
i told myself long before, i will make it big, and move the worlds with my ideas. but here i am sitting down in front of my laptop, figuring out which way to go. and if my heart would keep its normal beating until i can find the way of refuge. someday maybe, i could find the answers, figure the things that matters. things that truly matter. that i would not have to look for the things or where the road may lead me. and hopefully at the end of that path, the asnwer would just come….patiently waiting.
darkmau
MALAYA!
April 15th, 2007 at 4:45 pm
Yes, just patiently wait Mau. You are not alone in this world of perplexity. And life will always challenge us with intricate ordeals. You just have to look at the brighter side of it and you will realize that you are becoming a better person who is ready to face anything. Take care and GOD bless you!