a sleepy mind
what is the significance of birthdays? i dont know, but something tells me that it is not just a counting game of how many days or years you pestered people and places, or how many carbon footprints you produced while puffing cigarettes or the damages you caused this planet or the fact how many hearts you broke. i think it is more than the accounting of the numbers of experiences, but rather a collation of experiences; may it be sad or happy, nonsensical or illogical. qualitative versus a quantitative life.
this blog is not to lecture about a meaningful life or living a healthy life, id rather be objective in saying that life is worth living, whatever the conditions are. money, is almost always said to be a jargon for measuring the quality or quantity of being effecient in using time or the life energy as capital to gain this. but to what extent? contentment and fulfillment of heart’s desire opposes the idea of saturation or even the fact of being greedy.
for over the period years i never imagined something big could happen in my life, not because i dont believe in my "potentials" but because i thought i was content with where i used to be. people change, ideas evolved, and change remained constant. life is a journey, a never ending journey even with death. if we cross the boundary of mortality and death then we fulfill the idea of being human.
i do not know if i am making sense with the things i wrote. the truth is, i dont really care what you think. if you have reached this paragraph then i am thankful for actually arriving here. at this point, i have learned so many things, i learned that in order to keep a sane and sober life, one must not get drunk with criticism, positive or negative in the sense. why? simple, no human being remains objective, each and everyone with a sound or logical mind have subjective thought about one person. and the diversity of our experiences makes perceptions and observations quite different from each other. and this statement is actually a subjective input.
in my life i have learned that there are only 2 forces present in our life experiences. and these are push and pull forces. it is a law of physics that is relevant to almost everything. for fact, whether you agree or not , we are created with the same thing, which is called energy. if someone is pulling, one might be pushing. if both entities are exerting the same pulling force then it creates conflict and that is where agression begins, which could lead to unfavorable condition of dormancy. however, no matter how things are, everything leads somewhere, sometime, one way or the other.
darkmau
MALAYA!
