boxing day madness
Boxing Day is a public holiday celebrated in the United Kingdom, Canada, New Zealand and Australia and many other members of the Commonwealth of Nations on December 26, the day after Christmas Day;[1][2] or alternatively on the next weekday after Christmas
Boxing Day, contrary to common belief, is not about the sport of boxing. The celebration is traditional, dating back to the middle ages, and consisted of the practice of giving out gifts to employees, the poor, or to people in a lower social class. The name has numerous folk etymologies[3]; the Oxford English Dictionary attributes it to the Christmas box; the verb box meaning: "To give a Christmas-box (colloq.); whence boxing-day."
December 26, a special day for me, not because of the holiday but because it is a day worth remembering. I guess only a few people could recognize why. However this day should be marked special, today is Boxing Day, and above you could see the brief description of this holiday.
What Im trying to write really is about boxing things up to its ultimate end point. I have less to lose, each minute that pass by is like a decision turning for more concrete rationality. This day I would be able to box everything to a point where i could finally say I had enough of the things that i dont seem to enjoy.
OWAREDA! a japanese term that means IT IS OVER. i really hope that it will soon be over, it is a feeling of pain, only it takes me to a higher ground of uncertainty.
I guess i have said enough but still you dont have any clue of what runs in my mind. Hmmn let me give you better picture of what i am trying to say. Suppose youre a lanky school boy from far away land and suddenly after so many things in life you decided to become a man, and while everything is going right, you suddenly felt there is something more to do.Then you followed a path of uncertainty, but this time, you are on a ship, a ship which you dont control, and you stayed afloat on this voyage, and little by little you are losing your mind in the journey. You are now calloused and scars cover your body and you see the end of the dawn to morning and you suddenly felt you need to decide to leave.
Deciding is easy, but to live up to the decision is hard. Okay no more idioms, I am on the verge of quitting my masters. Not because its hard, its not the school that eats me up alive. Its the whole package of being here and still uncertain of why I am here. I have forgotten who i am or where i truly belong. I endured the two years, hoping to find myself here, hoping to fully consume my fears and i left everything which led me to the state of unhappiness.
My parents do no understand anything, ever since, they never appreciated anything i have accomplished. I am still a sore loser, they think that only my masters can save me from eternal damnation of the cruel society. Some people think that having a degree and having that advantage of qualifications would give them worth to who they are. Yes, sometimes it adds some luster, but most of the time, brilliance is not reflected on the degree you have obtained. Or the numbers you have gained, or anything that is written on ink and paper, brilliance for me would always be that thing that would make a difference maybe not to all people but even atleast to one person.
It is corny, and i must agree with my folks, I may not have the brains, or the skills, or the qualities to become a CEO or a global manager, one thing is for sure, I will be happy and contented to who i am and to what i do. I did not dream of having a power suit and sexy assistant right by my side trying to document everything i say.
MBA are letters added on your epitaph when your dead, its just a series of theories and probabilities using ones experience and logic to obtain the desired output. I can talk about strategies and the imporance of change or the levels of productivity or even the stages of operation management. I can blabber about lies and fallacies about business and the issues of ethics, and still I would not sound smart. And if thats the case, I box them all up, and live a life that ive always imagined, simple, laid back and happy.
If anyone is reading this, and would like to employ me, please tell me. haha, God, I know it is a tough decision. But my bestfriend Carle would always say, "there is no better time than now".
for now I am waiting on a divine sign from Father Jesus, I am discerning to His will, everything is already decided. And if I quit, Id lose everything, and that is the price I am willing to pay to let go, hey in business we call it value. need i say more?
every thoughts now are ready to be boxed…on boxing day.
as always,
mauro
